Somewhere

I have to say that I am depressed.

I am tired.

Today, I have spend my time trying to figure out what is going on with me.

I has freaking out.

I felt like I have been trying to climb a frozen hill and I keep sliding back and beyond the starting point. And every time I try again I never fully recuperated from the last attempt, so I don’t go as far up, but I slide further down the icy hill.

And after all these tries I am cold, wet and exhausted.

I feel lost. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I have tried and I ran out of time.

Today, I was supposed to turn in anything I had for a 10 page paper. I turned in my outlines from half done readings.

Last Wednesday, I had an acupuncture appointment, then I went to speak to a professor I admire. The date for the incomplete has passed.

ADHD & H1N1: Not a Good Combo

For the past week I have been dealing with H1N1. I am consistently tired and it extremely difficult to concentrate, but I keep on trying. I have gotten a little bit done. Although a lot less that I would had liked, but I have done a lot of mindless things that I have been procrastinating on. Which I am glad about, still I wish I would had gone further with school work, but I have done my best.

Well, I have some goals to get done this week by September 22. They are a little crazy in expectations, but I am hoping to get those done. I know that to get to my next chapter in life, I need to complete this semester.

“What will you do with your one wild and precious life?” Mary Oliver